not here

folks, I am not around anymore.


I am not here: I am in my house,
in limbo, and rather it be this way.


where is elaine?




I am not here anymore, don't look for me.
My mobile is not with me, and I dread it to ring.

I will have to go out tomorrow
to run errands, maybe then I will make calls.

And pretend I am a-okay! And smile.
Only once have I been spoiled for my mocking smile.

- I can yet continue that act.

I feel sick, but I am not sick - yet or anymore.
I wish I can sleep the whole day, and barely wake.