flux

Weary.

Flux of activity:
I haven't been cleaning
I haven't been working for a living.
Well I try to do some of it but it doesn't always work out.

When I get tired I flip and become totally incumbent.

Life is expensive. Recovery is expensive.

The air is thick with hesitation and resignation.

Being able to hit rock-bottom is important for going up. Flux.

But it sucks.

Great will-power doesn't feed us and medicate me.

Money does.

And that's in flux too.

In the trough of the wave, I fall even more sick.