Friday, March 23, 2007

I admire the way these volunteers work with these lives; lives that are so dependent on adults, lives that cannot think beyond their childhood years long past.

I thought I was here to mobilise people to serve others, that I can serve as an enabler, encourager: inspiring others.

But the truth is, these volunteers are the very ones who inspire me, who lead me to realise that my own capacity for service and missions is really still so small. That I am the one who needs to be inspired. That passion, no matter how great, will always remain subdued by the greatness of love.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I just watched "Music and Lyrics".

And can I just say...

Hugh Grant is sooo sexy.

Oh my gosh.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

chill

Tonight was a yuppie night because I had a weekday dinner at an Italian restaurant in town, and a pot of tea in an English-type tea room thereafter.


But nothing beats coming home; it is here that I can chill like no place else.


I read and probe the internet, shower, chat on the phone. Have a beer, think, write, and probably read some more. Nothing beats this. Especially even more so when the flat is still clean like it is now.


I think the whole concept of 'chilling out' is a yuppie idea. Kids 'hang out', young working adults 'chill out'. It is a wonderful feeling, being an urban adult.


The only yuppie thing I am not doing is going out for drinks or a party on a weekday night. It is all rather staid and homely for me. My nightly beer does not count. I like it this way, but then again I also like opportunity.


Opportunity is a vital factor in sexual attraction. Some like the idea of a challenge - someone obviously unavailable or who plays hard to get, that kind of thing. A challenge is an opportunity to be earned against the impossibilities. Others like the idea that someone is single and looking for someone.Or the fact that he or she likes you, the possibility of things, that makes for compounded attraction. Either way, the idea of an opportunity makes attraction even more compelling.


Not that I will die without a party and drinks on a weekday night. I feel pretty chill now anyway. Years ago when I was still at the bank, I remember the post-work drinks I had. I was always dead tired when I went (in time for happy hour or ladies' night), and even tireder when I left for the night. The best thing about these dos is the alcohol: lovely champagne at Centro, lovely Hoegaarden at Bala, that sort of thing. The company was sadly besides the point, and the music, forgettable. And I felt sad often. Those weren't exactly good days really, save the alcohol.


The cynicism and entertaining of different people, desirable or otherwise, in my flat. All that too.


I rather the way it is now. Happy, and chilling out in lovely company, that including myself.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

what I did this weekend

On Friday, I hogged the photocopier for two hours after work and ended up leaving the office at nine plus in the evening.

I missed going to cell group.

Then I went home, and got ready for the Stellar party at Phuture. C came to pick me up and we went, getting Daffy and Kenny along the way too.

We had loads to drink. I had at least two Sex-on-the-beach-es, and some other shooter-types of drinks like 'Illusions' and 'Slippery Nipples'. Also had a Chivas, and a beer.

Then I got home and slept in my makeup! I am a monster. I woke up looking nice and smelling terrible.

I woke and munched on some oatmeal squares, and promptly went and slept through most of the day, save to get up to eat my lunch at three. I also arranged for Elvis to come service my aircon on Monday.

At dinner time we ordered Macs and watched anime. C then went on to play WoW, while I went and cleaned the house. I cleaned all the rooms except the disused study room, and the toilets. I also did laundry, ironing, and changed the sheets.

Then we slept at three a.m. That was when I finished my housework, showered, and lay down to read 'The world according to Garp', and when C finished his in-game instance, showered too, and lay down to read 'Newton's Wake'.

I woke at noon the next day, and we finally made it out of the house (not until I also did another batch of laundry and some more ironing) to eat Hoe Nam prawn mee. Subsequently we went to town to walk a bit, have coffee together and to watch 300, after I needily bought another new skirt and book.

We went to meet C's family for dinner.

I came home, went to buy some groceries, ate some fruit, did more ironing, washed the toilet in my room - my hands are now very raw - and showered. I also did some prep for work tomorrow. (I am conducting some workshops next week. Finally I have an excuse to dress in my suits properly).

Superb weekend. I am going to get ready for bed now. Yummy.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

I love reading. Every night I come home and read online, or my books. Lately because I meet a lot of new people, they ask me what I like to do in my free time, and I say I like reading. Probably sounds anti-social, but I am.


Been falling asleep earlier and feeling sleepy constantly. But no matter. Work where I am is very relaxed; I am feeling rather under-utilised at the moment. A confidence-boost, because everything I need to do daily, I have done before, and more of at that. It feels funny not being a workaholic now, might I stagnate? It is inherent in my personality that I constantly and easily feel restless, as they have said.


This Friday night after ten we are going for the Stellar party at Phuture! Mainstream music like house and trance but extremely good djs so it will be well worth it. Come along with me if you dare.

Sunday, March 4, 2007

lovely weekend

Of which, one of the highlights is a new phone. C wanted to buy me a phone for V-day, seeing that he celebrates the occasion. My old phone has been functional, albeit the buttons are hardly working any more and there are no fancy-shmancy mp3 functions, heck, it didn't even have a data cable for uploading pictures. But I hardly had the urgency nor time to shop for a phone till today. So, it is probably more like a Chinese Valentine's Day gift for me. I love this phone: it looks great - nice and glossy and pink and sleek, very yummy to me.

We went to get this phone today; had to wait for about an hour at the Singtel shop in Citylink Mall (good service but you must wait). I bought a new top from m)phosis for work, and some herbal supplements to aid sleep from GNC, and for C I got got him some Echinacea with vitamin B and C as well as zinc, something I just bought for myself lately too.

After the phone shopping we also went to get C some new running shoes. The gal in the Nike shop at Suntec was uber helpful, and completely amazed by C's extreme flat-footedness, and his lack of discomfort wearing shoes not meant for flat-footers.

For dinner we went to the Blue Lobster at Frankel Avenue - we absolutely loved the foie gras we had the last time we went there for C's cousin's birthday dinner, it was the best we have had in Singapore so far, really. But they were out of foie gras! Nonetheless, we still ate there, lovely food as before.

Am now doing laundry, but probably not anymore housework than that and ironing. Will really have to soon, though.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

absence

I'm sorry I haven't been writing much.


Sedated.