sometimes i hate a showdown

i'd like to avoid conflict as far as possible

-

(next time)



i know i'm irritatingly annoying and

hard to bear with

at quarter-cen i've already chocked up

quite a few cockups



but it's okay i know

how to be an angel?

i can't and i won't be,

so this is me, take it real



reading my history

letters, icq, diaries, blog

i'm sick to the core

that i was once so hated.



what if i fuckup again

I can't afford to waste any more

lives, human, time, me, love

sometimes wonder if this is final



jsitpwmgms gibberish gibberish

...

misalignment, confusion of the

important things in life

my calling, my soulmate, my passions,

the pleasure i oughta have in life



what rubbish