I was on my way to this page, to write as I haven't for a while. To write as I haven't for so long, to write for the sake of making beautiful words.

But I always get sidetracked, and I did, by writing functionally, as I did just before this, writing to my students on their blog about their friend who had a violent manic episode, telling them about bipolar disorder.

And so I lost my resolve to try and write.

Trying to write in itself is a self-defeating purpose. When you have to try so hard, it becomes labour, it is far better to just jump write in and do, not try.

But I guess it will have to wait. Am now having gastric pain. Another time. And I need to finish that deadline I have on Monday.